Rubatosis

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Rubatosis

n.
the unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat, whose tenuous muscular throbbing feels less like a metronome than a nervous ditty your heart is tapping to itself, as if to casually remind the outside world, I’m here, I’m here, I’m here.

In music, tempo rubato, “stolen time,” is a slight speeding up and slowing down of the tempo of a piece, borrowing time from one measure then paying it back later. Pronounced “roo-bah-toh-sis.”

Fitzcarraldo

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Idlewild

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Aftergloom

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Exulansis

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Burn Upon Reentry

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Leidenfreude

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