pendulimes
noun
The sense that no matter how much effort you put into shaping your path, a genuinely satisfying conclusion remains just out of reach, leaving you perpetually on the edge of fulfillment without tipping over into full satisfaction.
From Latin 'pendulus' (hanging, undecided) + Ancient Greek 'limos' (hunger), indicating an unfulfilled craving. Pronounced 'PEN-dyoo-limes'.