Absencere
noun
The pull of duty compels you to perform a reluctant dance of coexistence, where erasing yourself feels like a tempting relief. Yet, the ties binding you to those who love you make such thoughts unwelcome, urging a facade of presence for their peace.
Combining Latin 'absentia' (absence) and 'sincere' from Latin 'sincerus' (pure), to convey a pure form of absence maintained by obligation. Pronounced "ab-SEN-seer"